So, I’ve been totally MIA on this blog. Which is stupid because I’m still paying for it. I’ve just been hella busy. Like, my job has me create ciriculums for five different courses. So all of my free time in the office was dedicated to lesson planning and all of my free time outside of the office was dedicated to regaining sanity. So I’ve mostly been using my laptop for streaming and downloading movies rather than blogging or writing anything that wasn't an exam.
I have been playing more music and singing more which has been pretty cool. Anywho now that we’re finally in exam week I have sometime to brag about how awesome my life has been these past six months while downplaying any and all emotional struggles. So, enjoy.
For those of you who don’t know I moved back to China in August. This is a picture of me drinking red wine on the plane to help me sleep at least part of the 12 hour flight. I was seated next to a young girl who sang along to frozen about five times over the course of the flight. But I’ve honestly had worse, at least it wasn’t Air China. I also spent about five hours before the flight crying in my mother’s living room battling the idea that I had made the wrong choice. Which doesn't seem too unreasonable looking back one it.
All in all I got over the initial fear and got back to being myself pretty quickly. I found the rugby team. Which I haven’t been as involved in as I would like. Partially because I’m busy and partly because practice is like an hour and a half commute from my apartment both ways. But he times that I have been able to make it out have been great.
They’re good people.
I’ve been questing to make friends. I’ve found a few and have been battling with what I’m looking for in all relationships. I’m trying to get out of old habits but it’s an on going process.
But I’m still me. And the Rios have followed me to Shenzhen. Though I couldn’t find the tall boys. I found some kindrid spirits.
And some cool characters.
And all the people I teach with are pretty cool. We’ve got a pretty solid group going. So that cuts the loneliness of the city a bit.
Shenzhen can be really beautiful at times. The weather is amazing, fuck the winter, and Hong Kong is a 15min fast train ride away if I need a change of scene and language. I am doing the best that I have here and these past six months have been eye opening for me. Since I am in a good place financially, I’ve been about to analyze the non environmental factors that affect my mental health. The most important thing that I did was change my location and situation. Now that I have nothing to blame, not money or weather or lack of adventure, though I would like a few more punk/metal/hardcore venues. I can take the time I need to at least begin to maybe start to figure it out.
And there has been rugby and all that entails so thats pretty cool.
I’m trying to create a space where I can be happy. I started one of those online therapy things. I’m using TalkSpace. The second therapist I have been speaking with is actually a helpful. So I think I’m gonna stick with it for a while, at least through the winter.
Speaking of depression, the news from back home is bumming me the fuck out. I actually had to turn off a video about those racist ignorant pricks in the red hats being racist ignorant pricks in public, or the shut down or like the class sizes in LA. Wew, it’s a lot and I hope everyone isn’t getting too angry and can focus on positive things and creating stuff and other hippy stuff.
Yeah I'm a bit weary of life in the USSA. I'm not sure when I'll be back for good. Maybe after 2020. In the meantime here are a bunch of pictures of me having a great time in Thailand. You can live vicariously through me.
I plan to do a bunch more traveling this year, and probably next year. Let me know where you are and we can meet up.
I'm just out here trying to live my best life. There is always time to change. I turn 29 in like a week or something so I can start my 1/8th life crisis.