Current mood: So stressed out I might explode.
So I went down to Richmond last week, or was it the week before… anywho it was the Vinyl Conflict 10 year anniversary show with the Night Birds headlining. I bought my ticket like two months ago. I had so much fun. But I didn't wanna be a douche and take a picture of the band, so I uh don't have any pictures of the band. Also because I can never get a good shot. But now I have this dope camera so I should have tried… oh well.
Richmond is always a blast, I love seeing my old friends and all. I miss going to shows and being ignorant and drinking to much and watching fights almost happen. It's like Richmond is the land that time forgot. It reminds me that things can be simple. You can live a good life with good friends and good surroundings with less of the bullshit pressure. Maybe I put too much pressure on myself. I get stressed and don't realize I'm stagnating. I can at the very least appreciate where I am. Richmond reminds me of that hope and freedom. Freedom to and freedom from.
But I am super stressed out right now. I'm worried that I won't be able to to get my visa stuff in in time. I just wanna get everything done and start teaching. I've already come up with some good lesson plans and project ideas. But there is all this red tape in the way. Bureaucracy sucks!
So right now I'm stressing that I won't be able to start the job I want in the fall, that I might have to quit one of the jobs I have mid-season and end up screwing some people over and I'm not sure if I can take the leave I need from my other, online, job. Andlike the online job is like my back up if somethinggoeswrong with the China job and if I losethatbecause I take time off to get to the Chinajob andthe China job doesn'tworkout.... jesus. You see where I'm at. I'm hoping it'll all work out in some capacity. Hopfully whatever happens I'll end up where I need to be.